Never Enough...

I'm the type of person who sees something through till the finish... However, once I achieve what I set out to do, I find something about it that I can do to make it- Better.

My husband chastises me about my 'perfection' tendencies. Yes, I tend to go over board with things I want to accomplish. Yes, I try to make my goals without error. But, I feel as if I'm becoming obssesed with my projects...

"Will it ever be enough?" My husband asked me one day while we were driving home. The answer was already out of my mouth, "No, it will never be enough." I was slightly shocked at my response; I want to be happy and live a comfortable lifestyle, but will I be able to? If all my intentions are to always out-do myself for a better position, better things, and more money- where does it stop??

Where is the happiness and comfortable lifestyle I so desire? At what point do I level out and say, "ok, I'm satisfied." I don't want to constantly perfect what can never be perfected, its a losing battle. Not sure where to find the answers to this question.

Perhaps a place for me to start would be time management. Maybe if I set small goals, and not such high ones, I can be more satisfied with my work? My husband suggested that, isn't he great??

I think I will take his advice and implement it starting tomorrow... I grow weary of trying to be perfect and accomplish everything. I just want to be happy. Tired right now tho, guess I better let my mind rest- tomorrow is another day! ;)

- Nita
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New job, new life, new discoveries

So, it's been a week since I left my job at the pharmacy. I've worked at home for the entire week, which is great I'm really enjoying it... What I didn't count on however, was how lonely I was going to be!
I truly miss being around people! Its like, a freakin drug, I HAVE to have human interaction! It really is strange, I'm sad if I'm not around people... Wonder if I should join some club or group that meets once a week..? I have to do something- the one thing I can't stand above everything else- is being lonely.

I have to find a solution and soon...

-Nita
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Early morning, can't sleep...

Ugh, its- 4:30 in the freakin morning on a Satuday. The beginning to my weekend and what happens? I wake up at 4:30am!!! I don't know why!? I went to bed super tired, not to mention super later. I figured the later it was, the longer I'd sleep since I would be so tired! But nooooo!

Geez! I'm still tired, but my brain is awake and wants me to get up and do stuff. And from the looks of where my husband fell asleep, he just went to bed about an hour ago. He's a night owl, so that is normal.

My stomach hurts too! Maybe that's keeping me awake. I shouldn't have eaten so late! I'm just goin on and on with my whining goodness! Well I'm tired! I don't feel good and I got no one to complain to right now, so you're just gonna hafta listen Mr. Internet! :P

I've been miss someone from my past very much here lately... I keep dreaming about him. It's been everynight now for the last week.. Can a person really miss someone that much? I know I miss him... The problem is, I don't know why! It just, started like tuesday night, and I just keep missin him more and more each day- not to mention each night...

Oh well, I've pretty much got it set in my mind that I'll never see him again anyway. So what's the point in missing him...? Eh, maybe the 1 in a million that I'll be with him again... Yeah, sappy I know. But if I had my choice, I'd be with him... But that's life I guess.

Anyway, my stomach still hurts. I'm gonna go find some tums or something. Maybe I can get some shut-eye! Later peeps!

-Nita
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I LOVE to laugh!

I just recently left my FT out of the home job to take an opportunity where I will be working at home Full-time and concentrating on my sales. Where I'm going with this is; when I did leave my job at the Pharmacy. People were saying how they were going to miss me because I made them laugh. The one thing that I love to do in the entire world is to laugh!

Whether its a funny joke, video, cartoon stip- anything! I'm all about laughter! It's hard to be serious all the time, and I used to tell people that. You can't be serious all the time, life will get boring! Do you need a laugh right now? RD Laughs probably has what you're looking for! Check this link out below:

Funny Cartoon Strip

To find more funny cartoons, follow this link:

Funny Cartoons

Funny huh? Well if thats not your type of humor, browse the site and look for more good stuff! Feeling sad? What I do is keep different comic strips at my desk so that when I get sad, I can look at them and start laughing. My favorite type of funniness is stand up comedy. Dave Shapell was awesome while he was still doing stand-up! My husband introduced me to him (not personally no, but on CD!) and I was hooked from the first episode! If stand-up is your thing, check this link out:

Stand-up Videos

Now this guy isn't Dave, but he's pretty darn funny!

Grandmdas Crappy gifts

"Laughter is the sunlight of the soul." A good friend of mine has that on his email as a closing line. The part about it, its very true! Don't you feel better after you've had a good laugh? Doesn't your spirit lift up and you feel a sense of relief? I know I always feel great when I laugh- and I laugh all the time! Thats just my personality!

Hooked on this so far? Great! I know I am! You can also subscribe to their Newletter for daily funny stuff straight to your email! So c'mon now, take a peek at one of these links and crack a lil' smile today!

RD Laughs Main

Hey thanks for reading!

- Nita



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Here I go again, on my own!

Well, I've done it finally! I'm going full time from home! I'm just a tiny bit nervous, but as long as I practice and study, I'll be ok! I'll be prayin to god as well! He's always helped me stay straight...

From the looks of the call center, it looks like everything is going down... Wonder if calls are going through? I guess they are! I can still see calls coming in! I want to learn better phone skills. OMG! Scott is soooo sweet! I gave him a letter to say good-bye AND that I wanted some info on the business aspect of thing. He is soo intelligent! I wrote down everything he said- what a smart man!

I always new I was attracted to brains and nerds! Hee hee! Whew! I'm spent for the night- talk to you soon people!

- Nita
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Bleach - The movie!

My husband and I are BIG fans of the show Bleach! We were so into it, we had seen only 1 episode on Cartoon network, and next thing you know, were at the mall buying the first 2 seasons! The full length movie will be in theaters June 11th and June 12th. We're soo excited to see it!

You can view the locations of where they will be showing the movie at a theater near you buy visiting the website below:

Bleach the Movie

I always wanted to have a cool Japanese name! Granted, I don't speak any Japanese at all, but I figure since we watch so much Anime- I get to claim one for myself! My Japanese name would be:

Akira Chou

I don't know if thats right, but it means: Bright Butterfly. I think it's supposed to be backwards like how they have it in spanish. In any case, I took the words from 2 different Japanese made items I totally love! "Akira" is from the movie Akira, an intense movie of mental powers, friendships and love. It's also pretty gruesome, but well worth it!

"Chou" is derived from the video game: Fatal Frame: Crimson Butterfly. It was based on 2 Japanese twin girls, present characters and past characters. A town that forced the youngest twin to sacrifice their beloved twin by strangling them to death. It somehow 'appeased' the void which lay beneath their town. It was released in 2003 for the PS2 and has been my favorite horror game ever since!

Can you tell we're big anime fans now?! Getting to see Bleach in theaters will be the icing on the cake! I hope you enjoy it!



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That's what I get...

So, I laid down around 8:00pm today JUST to take a nap right? And what happens?? I'm wide awake at 1:00 in the morning! Geez!! I somehow knew that was just a bad idea!

In any case, I've only got 2 more days till quittin' day- I noticed that only 'certain' people will miss me... I guess the primary director has a stick up his ass, cause he hasn't said anything to me since I put in my notice...? Oh well, I'm gonna miss the people who really matter anyway.

Going into business for myself sounds scary! Whew! I thought about long and hard.. But its something I've been wanting to do for a while now! As long as I've got my baby to back me up, I'll be alright! Giggity! ;D

Well, gonna try and kill my last couple of hours of sleep! Ugh, if I seriously can sleep anymore! Night!

-Nita
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Lazy weekend

I'm just laying around watching Drawn Together. Been such a lazy weekend... Well, tomorrow I'm going to be putting in my 2 weeks notice... I've found another job! I'm soooo excited about it! I can finally reach my dream!

May take a while to get up to the top as I had hoped... I'm glad Marcus supports me in everything I do. I know I'll miss pharmacy. I learned so much from that place. I worked with lotsa different personalities, learned different skills and made new friends. Hope I can adjust.

I thought about it all weekend. I don't hafta take this new job... I could stay with pharmacy.. But would I ever go up? Would I ever go anywhere? I just don't see me going anywhere if I stay there. Bored outta my mind, at my desk all day long... Yeah! It's time to move on and I think this is my chance! We'll see how it goes!

-Nita
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From Anime to Live action film: Death Note

Wow! This is pretty cool! My husband and I absolutely love this anime! We watch it on cartoon network late at night. It has strange demons and monsters all around it. It's a very intense show, and now there is a live action film! Sweet!



The show revolves around Light Yagami who is the carrier of the Death Note and the Detective known as "L". They both believe they are doing good and have difficulty finding which of them is evil. It's really a great show and has some good comedy! I'm thrilled they're making a live action film about it! Click the link below to find out more:

DeathNote

The movie opens in theaters May 20th & 21st. The closest one to my location will probably Austin, TX. I like the theaters there better anyway. Judging from the website, it has no rating. However, they caution that it is equivalent to a rating of "R". So keep the kiddos at home and enjoy the show! I know I will! Thanks!

- Nita



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Video Games Rule!!

I absolutely LOVE video games! When I was a kid, I wanted to be the CEO for Nintendo of America. What a dream huh? I didn't realize that to get to that point, you have to have several degrees and business knowledge. Ignorance is bliss is it not? Well, I still dream of that, not necessarily being the CEO for NOA, but I still want to be in the business market of video games!

What I currently do now is buy and resale video games on ebay and locally. It doesn't make tons of money tho, but its a nice little fat change! I still want to create video games, like design them and make storylines. I was thinking about doing that in my spare time. Among the other billion hobbies I do in 'my spare time'. Sheesh!

So anyway, I'm trying to find information on the net about how to build or create a video game. I have some old college text books on programming, but nothing on how to make, create, or even start a video game. I was wondering if there was some kind of Java programming that could possibly help me out with this. I've seen lots of Macromedia video games floating around; not very extensive but not too bad either.

Well, if anyone has any good recommendations I'd be more than happy to hear them! In any case, I'm on the hunt! Thanks for listening!

- Nita

Have your blog work for you. Join SocialSpark Today!

If blogging is a favorite past time or recent hobby of yours, why not use it to create a little cash on the side? Try SocialSpark! Have you come to a writers block in your blog? Find something to write about on SocialSpark!

SocialSpark is the latest creation of Izea (Also creators of Payperpost). SocialSpark allows you to come together with other bloggers to create buzz about your blog. You can also take opportunities that advertisers pay you to write about them on your blog! The opportunities are endless, and are not limited to just advertisers. Other bloggers and create whats called a 'Spark' opportunity and you blog about them, and they will return the favor by blogging about you on their blog! It creates more traffic and exposure to your blog, very handy! Here is an example of the opportunities that SocialSpark has to offer:

The format of the "Opps" (opportunities) is easy to decipher. The title and the price are listed on the same line. Next to the price is the "post" button lets you know that an advertiser wants you to post about this particular opp on your blog. Below that are the "Open and Qualification" notices. If they are both green, you can take that opp. The tabs at the top have the different types of opps you can take or you can view them all by clicking on the first tab "All Opportunities".

The radio buttons and boxes to the far right indicate that you can sort through all the opps by qualification and open. That way you don't have to look through tons of opps you may not be qualified for, or that are no longer open. To find out more about an opp that interests you, click on the title of the opp and a more detailed overview will show on your screen regarding that opp.

It is a little overwhelming I know. I was confused for the first couple of days that I had signed up! After you use it for a while, you can certainly get the hang of it. Also, if you're still having trouble, you can also visit the FAQ's for this site:

I visited this place lots of times, FAQ's help in more ways than one! Izea provides these FAQ's to assist not only the bloggers, but the advertisers as well. You can see the purple links that I've already visited on a frequent basis. I wanted to make sure that I was following the SocialSpark guidelines. Always good to follow the rules!

Speaking of which, SocialSpark also has what is called, the Code of Ethics. It basically enforces the rules of blogging. Y'know, being honest with your opinion, making sure you know that once you participate with opps; your blog becomes public to that area. Hey, as I stated before its good for exposure! There are a couple of other items that you need to be aware of in the Code of Ethics. See the list below:

100% Audit-able In-Post Disclosure
Your readers trust you. SocialSpark is committed to keeping it that way. That's why we insist on a strict policy of full in-post disclosure for all sponsored posts. By receiving payment for blogging about a certain topic, even if you would have written about that topic anyway, you run the risk of giving the impression of a conflict of interest. By showing your audience, in a very visible and proactive manner, that you are being paid for that content, you will maintain the trust of your readers and avoid any appearance of impropriety.
Each sponsored post opportunity within the SocialSpark marketplace provides the blogger a small snippet of code for a Disclosure Badge. The Disclosure Badge must be placed at the end of each post without exception. This badge protects both you and the advertiser, providing an audit-able disclosure trail that exceeds compliance standards based on FTC and WOMMA guidelines.
100% Transparency
Every participant in SocialSpark is made viewable to the public. The public can also see which bloggers are working with which advertisers on which opportunities. This is designed to keep the community honest and open about the transactions that occur. If you don't want someone to know you are doing business with a particular advertiser or blogger, chances are you should reconsider.
100% Real Opinions
Subject to the specific agreement you form with an advertiser, you are free to write or say whatever you want. SocialSpark itself has no restrictions on how you express your genuine thoughts on an advertiser's product or service. It's up to you to pick the Opportunities that best suit you and your blog. If it doesn't feel right, if you don't own the product, or if you can't be honest we ask you to pass on the Opportunity. Dishonest or completely off-topic posts can ultimately hurt your blog's credibility. We strongly encourage you to only take opportunities that relate to you and to alert us if an advertiser ever suggests that you be dishonest.
100% Search Engine Friendly
Each sponsored link in SocialSpark automatically carries the "no-follow" attribute so as not to affect search engine rankings. This is designed to protect bloggers and advertisers from search engine penalties based on paid linking. Bloggers and Advertisers participating in the marketplace agree not to circumvent this practice and manually remove the "no-follow" attribute.
Truth-in-advertising is extremely important to us. It is your responsibility to follow our Code of Ethics. SocialSpark reserves the right to remove you from our system or cancel bounties if you violate this policy. If you have questions about our policy or suggestions on how to improve it or better enforce it, please contact customer support.

Ready to sign up? Or do you just want to learn more? Click on the link below to get started:

SocialSpark

All in all, SocialSpark really is a great way to expand your blog exposure, create some extra cash on the side, meet other bloggers and view blogs that interest you! I am certainly impressed with SocialSpark, I hope that you will be to. Thanks for reading!

- Nita

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Rambling Thoughts

Do you ever do this? You're laying down in bed trying to relax and then- your mind starts to wander...

You start thinking about the days events, tomorrows agenda, stuff that needs to be done, blah, blah, blah! I wish that I could just click off my thought process for just 8 hours to get a decent sleep!

It sucks cause sometimes I'll replay a scene in my head over and over with different outcomes each time. Or I'll think about how I answered someone and wonder if I was too nice or too rude! Talk about a worry-wart!

This is the reason I started blogging- I have to find some outlet for my continuous thoughts! I figure if I write about them, they'll leave my mind. Then I could possibly get a decent sleep at night. It's worked so far!

Blogging helps along with meditation and yoga. I find I'm a bit more relaxed than I used to be. Granted, I still would like to reduce my stress level, although I see no end in sight for that yet. Maybe when my small business takes off, things may be a lot better... I hope anyway.

I'm glad pizza hut has come up with other stuff than just pizza. Has anyone had their pasta yet?? It rules! It can feed 4 people and comes with a 2lit drink and breadsticks! Not bad at all for 23.99! I had bought some earlier and a dessert for my hunny when he gets home. Good food!

Whew.. Was that all in my head tonight? Oh wait- Merlocs! I swear that game, WoW, is on my mind more often than it used to be! Oooh.... I think sleep is fixin to kick in... Yep, gettin sleepy.. Night ya'll!

-Nita
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Pictures are worth 1,000 words

I thought I'd do one more post before I call it a night. I saw an opportunity to show one of my favorite pictures. It was taken 2 years ago, before my husband and I got married. I really like this picture, it was the only picture out of 50 that we really liked and we got an 8 x 10 and several small copies to give to family and friends. It truly says how much we love each other, if I had not met my husband I probably wouldn't be as happy as I am today.

Doesn't he have a wonderful smile? He's sooooo handsome! I love him so much. Yes, sometimes he can be a butt-head and be a little baby, but he's my baby. I love you Marcus.

This next picture, is not a favorite really. But its probably the best head shot I've taken in many years. I really don't like the way my face looks, because it looks like I'm older than I really am. I don't know that for certain, but I'm very critical of myself. Anyway, here is the real Nita:

Well, thats me. I think I just look tired, oh well. Now this last item I have for you all is a link to a photograph site of wonderful pictures! One of those pictures is so fantastic, it could be the next hallmark card! Please take the time to visit this site, everyone likes to look at pictures! Thanks!

Pho-Tog-B-log

- Nita

P.S. Good night for real now! :P~~

Creepy Crawlies!

My husband and I get along very well; we share a lot of the same things. We both like football, we love to watch comedy movies and shows, we like to take long drives and talk about stuff. The one thing we have a problem with is this: I LOVE spiders! And he has arachnophobia! I found this out our second year dating. Oh my gosh, when I discovered that, I was thinking to myself: "How will this guy be around me when we get married?". Well needless to say, and really this is wrong, ITS FUNNY! lol!

I have always liked spiders. The way they crawl around, their sleek bodies and slow paced walk. One leg after another, its so intriguing to watch them walk! What's even better is how they feed! Being fascinated by this creatures, I would catch crickets and put them in their webs. I was shocked the first time I saw this spider stun this cricket then wrap it up in just under a minute! Talk about fast food! It was the greatest thing I ever saw...

Now, as I said before, my husband has arachnophobia. Just the sight of a spider makes him sick! I remember the day I found out about it. It was my birthday and we went for a drive to the lake. We walked around and talked, bought some ice cream and just enjoyed the sunset. Well, Texas lakes are usually surrounded by tall grass and brush. So, we're walking in the dark back to the truck. We got in the truck and started to drive off.

We were only a mile down the road when my husband yelled and steered the car quickly onto the curb almost running into a sign! "Whats wrong?!" I said. When I looked at him he was screaming and tearing his shirt off saying: "Get it off! GET IT OFF!!" So I pulled off his shirt and he jumped out of the car and was like, brushing his skin off- it kinda looked like he was dancing, hehe!

I was confused and looked down at his shirt and there on the shoulder was a tiny spider. I mean tiny. I looked at him and started laughing as he sat back in the truck with no shirt on. "Kill it!" He said as he saw it crawling around on his shirt and he started pressing up against the door. I've never seen a man move so fast in his life! Well anyway, I stepped out of the car and flicked the little guy back into the grass then handed back his shirt to him. "I'm not wearing that till I wash it!" He said and we drove back home. My husband shirt-less and me laughing my ass off at the whole situation!

I can't really say 'we' look back on that time and laugh- cause he doesn't think its funny. I asked him where he got his phobia, but he says he doesn't know. Oh well, we get along very well- except for that :). In any case, this post was to introduce my newest little buddy! Everyone! Meet Trinket! My newest add-on to my blog. She kicks ass! She'll follow your mouse cursor on the screen, so don't be shy! I don't care what anyone says, spiders rule! Night folks!

- Nita

Scary Movie- The Real Deal

Like many people I know, my favorite kinds of movies are; foreign films and horror flicks! I've just finished watching the trailer for the upcoming film; Frontier(s). The trailer suggests a group of young adults whom have committed a theft and are now running from police. In their attempts to remain elusive, they decide to hide out in a hotel outside of the city. The movie opens up as a normal crime and punishment flick, however once they stay at the hotel, things become increasingly fearful.

There are images of a large man. He is probably the hotel keeper, though he looks more like a butcher. There are scenes of torture and many suspenseful events. The movie is also noted as "Unrated". From just watching the trailer; it seems that this show will not be viewable for younger children or people of weak stomachs. It is not a complete gore film; however if blood is not your forte' I recommend you watch this film through your fingers.



For horror fans, this one is for you! A creepy setting in an old hotel- brings back memories of past horror flicks for myself *sigh*- an odd hotel keeper, strange noises, disappearances and screams in the night! Can you feel the excitement?! The fear of being chased by something terrifying?! Knowing you may die?! View the trailer here now:

Horror Movie

The show is expected to be in theaters May 9th. Being closest to Austin, TX. I'll more than likely go to the Galaxy theater there to view the show. Well, not just me of course, I'll have a group of my friends to go with me. I like horror flicks, but I wouldn't want to watch this show alone!

Now there are those, such as my husband, who are into extensive blood and gore movies. I like to see a little blood and gore, but movies such as SAW, I can't do. The link below provides enough satisfaction to quench your thirst for such films. If you liked Frontier(s), I've no doubt you'll enjoy the other movies they have to offer.

Frontier(s)

Don't get too scared now... MWAHAHAHA!

Thanks!
- Nita



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Sleeepy

Whew! A little tired than normal tonight. I think its usually like this- I need to work out more. I confirmed today that I am infact not pregnant. Its kinda sad, but I guess that's the way things will be for now...

I'm laying in bed right now trying to relax, I was really worked up at work today. John is right, I let people take advantage of me. I don't want people to, but how can I be tactful about it? He doesn't understand, the minute you lay your boundaries, the harder they make your job! That's the way those people are! I really want to quit so bad.

I need to pray. I find that I am praying less and less- I need some spiritual guidance and comfort. I think that is what I will do tonight... Night.

- Nita
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My Pets are my babies!

Pet's can be a wonderful part of your life. Or, they can be destructive as all hell! My husband and I currently own 2 cats. 1 is a calico tabby and the other is a Bengal. The Calico's name is Nani, Nauissca Raye Brown is her registered name. Now, this is sad, we've registered the Bengal, however, we've misplaced her papers and couldn't remember her name! I think it was Twilight Tenchi Brown, but I'm not sure. So, we call her Booger. lol! I know that's wrong! But that's what we call her now. When we take her to the vet, everyone laughs cause of her name. We'll find those papers someday...

So, they are wonderful pets! Our Calico is well behaved, happy and healthy. Booger on the other hand, she's a pain in the butt! She is so destructive when she doesn't get what she wants! And she howl and scratch at my bedroom door for attention. Nani was NEVER like that, not even as a kitten! She was always so sweet and quiet- I don't know where we went wrong with Booger. I think its because she's the baby, my husband gives her special treatment.

Besides being destructive, its also very therapeutic to pet and hold them. I find when I am down or sad I can just cuddle my Nani and she makes me feel so much better! Or if I'm feeling mischievous, I play pranks on Booger and she is so much fun to play with! So much energy for a little cat!

Well, that's just a brief overview of our pets. I could go into further detail about what they do, but I plan on posting video of them on here so you can see for yourself.

Check out this cool site as well when you're done reading my post:

Sugaykisses.com

Thanks!

- Nita

At work blues

This is for all you managers and supervisors out there... how and why is it, that when you get promoted to 'management' positions, you become jerks? You either want to micromanage, be a total asshole, or just pick on people? What is the problem people??

Is it the feeling of power? Is that it? Do you honestly like making someone who is technically beneath you feel like shit? I truly don't understand it! For example, and I'm not holding back, we have a nurse that works with us, her name is Loretta Clemon. I liked her and had no problem with her for a long time. However, until recently, I learned that she used me. I was so fucking gullible, she used me every chance she got. Now she has a 'co-worker', she thinks she's the boss, that she works with and he doesn't back down from her. So, she's a total bitch to him. Not only that, she argues with him and does stupid stuff like that, she makes it completely uncomfortable to work in the same office with her!

Not sure what her problem is. OK, here's another example. This ugly whore works in the Outpatient pharmacy. Her name is Brenda Brown- OMG, she has to cake on make-up just to look decent! But that's besides the point- she has convinced this new pharmacist, Judy, that the Medication Access people that work in our office, isn't worth shit! Isn't that something?? She has everyone believe that the 2 women who run that department are worthless, have nothing to do, and their job doesn't mean spit.

Whats even worse, she told that to their faces! Honestly, if you were a manager in this position, would you tell your employee that kind of crap? I'm glad one of the Med Access ladies did what she did! The pharmacist says she went behind her back, but she told her to her butt-ugly face; "When I get upset, I send out emails.". So she told her TO HER FACE, that she was going to spread the word about what she said. So now, they're trying to get her in trouble.

If you ask me, it serves them right to be told off by the doctor. I'm not really sure what he told them, because the Med Access lady emailed the doc and told him what the Pharmacist said, but I think it's justice.

You so called, 'managers', need to WAKE THE FUCK UP and stop being such bitches! That goes for you too Loretta. Just because you want to retire, doesn't mean you can sleep at your desk for half your shift, leave for hours at a time, belittle John and threaten him with his annual review! You people make me sick!

God! I can't WAIT to quit that god forsaken job! So much damn drama! I could go on forever about half the ass-kissin', wanna be, shit talkin' ass holes that work there- Ugh, but what does it matter? No one cares what I think. I hope they find this blog, by then, I'll probably be long gone.

Fuck you all.

- Nita

*Sorry for all the bad words, I'm really sick of the pharmacy.

Bad Boys! Bad Boys! What ya' gonna do?

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Click the link below to browse their site:
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Going over seas? Check out their deployment gear for items that you may need when leaving our country. In addition to great supplies, they feature some neat tools on their website! For instance, Live Help when you have a question regarding an item on their site or payment plans.

One thing I'm beginning to see more and more; is a little input box on the left of the page where you can enter your cell phone number! They will text you when they have coupons and specials going on! Good to be in the know!

They also have Military and Government pricing for our soldiers that fight to keep this country going!

Thanks!

- Nita

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Crazy Days

Well, since about 6:00 this afternoon I've been on the computer non stop! First, I did some work on my website, made some very good progress mind you! Played some Yahoo! Games with my sister, that rocked! Installed a couple of much needed programs. Most of them were some old PC games I had stashed away! Not to mention that I'm dabbling a little bit with WoW!

I so LOVE that game! OMG, I hadn't played in almost 2 years, and I didn't realize how much I missed it!! Woo! Well anyway, its Sunday and tomorrow its back to the grind. Ugh, that job is really crazy! I can't wait to quit and work from home full-time! Tomorrow is when we get our new boss, yikes! I hope he's a really nice guy. Get nervous around those people that want to 'own' everyone, so to speak. But hey, he may be a really cool guy. We're gonna have to live with it- Emory chose him anyway. Fucking prick.

I really don't have anything against my boss, he's just slick ya know? He told us 'we' could pick our new boss- yet he already had who he wanted in mind. So we really 'didn't' get to choose. Oh well, guess that's the way it works huh?

I don't know about you, but office politics is NOT for me. So much drama and unnecessary crap like that. Like I said before, I'll be glad when I'm outta there, whew!

Well, its still early, but I don't like to sleep with my hair all wet. So I'm ending this fairly shortly and going to crash now. Hope you all have a great Monday! Cause mine is gonna be hell :)

- Nita

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Here I am.. Again

Whew! At work right now, I don't feel right for some reason. My lower abdomen hurts like hell! I feel badly bloated and these sharp pains are shooting downward like into my thighs... I shouldn't say it hurts- its more uncomfortable than anything else really.

I was supposed to blog lastnight but I got sleepy. Well, didn't finish this like I was supposed to. I'm gonna make it short though, till next time!

- Nita
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Wasn't meant to be...

Well, it seems my body has aborted the pregnancy yet again. I started today, not very heavy however, but I no longer believe I am pregnant. I guess that early test and then the negative test says it all- a miscarriage. My friend told me that I needed to stop going through this and put myself on birth control.

It's not that I don't believe in it, I just don't like having to take pills all the time just to make myself feel better! It's bad enough that I have to take anti-depressants everyday just to function properly! It's not her fault, I know she means well.

I am sad, but I knew it was going to happen again... I just don't understand why though. Am I not supposed to have kids? Am I cursed? Am I being punished for something I did? Only god knows the answer to that. I wonder though why it is this way... I need to get an extensive checkup. I think I will have my doctor look into it tomorrow. I remember; when I was 3, I was kicked in the ovaries by a horse. Thrown up against a barn and knocked out. I wonder if that has anything to do with it?

My belief is, things happen for a reason... Maybe that happened because God knows for some unforseen reason- I cannot and should not have children. I wish I knew why, but I guess that's for me to find out at the appropriate time. Damn I'm tired... Until next time! Night!

- Nita

My blue line...

So, because I worked the weekend at the hospital this past weekend, for only 2 hours, I was able to go home early today. I left at 3:00, the thought of taking the pregnancy test tomorrow morning was making my nervous. 'What happens if I am??? What if I'm not??' So many questions going through my head! Anyway, I got home, grabbed a PBJ and took a nap. I was dead tired all day long! It was odd because I slept all night! With the exceptions of 3-4 pee breaks every few hours :).

Anyway, I took a nap and woke up around oh... lets see, 6:30pm? I'm not sure if it was a dream I had or what, but something was telling me I should take the pregnancy test now! My bladder was also telling me that I needed to pee pretty badly and to make a decision quick! So After a few minutes of debating, I decided to take the test. 'Alright, just piss on the damn thing and get it over with!' I thought to myself. Once the pissing was completed, I covered the stick and looked at it. In about 2 minutes, a faint, but blue line showed up in the window. 'OMG!' I thought in my head. "I'M PREGNANT!" I screamed in my mind!

I sat on the toilet thinking, 'What now??'. I stared at the stick as it dried and the line was still there. I wanted to retake the test- stupid right?? But I really did want to pee on the same stick! I was scared! I'm still scared but I'm excited at the same time! We're going to have a baby!!

I'm going to wait a few days however, as I have been known to terminate early in pregnancies in the past. I will retake it again on the 10th. Once I have 3 positive tests, I'm going to take the pee test at the hospital so they can set up my appointments. *sigh* what a day! Last thing I expected all day long. Yet, I knew deep in my heart that I was already pregnant. I didn't need a test to tell me I was... however, I do need a test to show those doctors that I am. I can't stand doctors, ugh! That's another story though :). I'll keep ya'll informed, night for now!

- Nita

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- Nita

1/4 of the way there!

It's April people! Geez, this year is flyin' by ain't it!? So much going on and so much yet to come... Marcus and I are pretty sure we're preggo now. He says my symptoms are a lot more distinct than last time. I also experienced morning sickness today! Ick, it sucked! I left work early cause I was feeling like crap, but when I made it home- I ran to the bathroom cause I was ready to puke up lunch!

It sucked cause I had half a burger for lunch and threw it all up! In any case- we did some reading about morning sickness and how to prevent it. He's sweet! He picked up some Sprite for me when he went to get dinner. I ate crackers and sprite since NOTHING sounds appealing to me at all! I did have a protein shake with strawberries and a banana for dinner tho; honestly, that was all I could stomach at the time.

Well, no more fried foods for a while. Damn, I was really craving fried chicken and syrup too! Well, maybe I can try that later on in the week :) Oh, I also 'worked out' some today. I'm kinda ashamed cause I can do much better than what I did but anyway; I walked on my treadmill at a fast pace for 1 mile! It was so worth it cause I had energy and was able to get some work done and clean up my kitchen! Woo Hoo! I'll do that everyday just for that burst of energy!

Well, it's friggin' late and I'm about to fall asleep to the music I'm listening to... Kinda cold in here as well... Aw man, I gotta pee already! Till next time!

- Nita
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The weekend... time to get busy!

So, the weekend is finally here! I should've been writing this earlier in the day- but there was so much to do! We've settled nicely in the new house. I love it soo much more than the apartment! It's spacious, quieter, and relaxing. It's taken me 3 years to finally get to this point; just a little bit longer and we can finally buy our next home! Not sure how long we plan to live here, I wanted to get my credit completely back under control before I even begin to apply for homes. Wonder if I can get my husband to do the same...?

In any case, its time to go back to work. The move is over and it's time to focus on more urgent matters. For instance; I've cut back on my eBay and side job to concentrate on this project. Now its time to jump back into my usual working habits! I have my own office now, its up and ready for use! I will have to make adjustments here and there. Such as a desk, instead of this dinner table I use, some decor cause its kinda bland in here. Just little odds and ends. My website is top priority at this point! I've purchased that sucker and haven't put but maybe a week's worth of work into it. Lame! Gotta get back into that stat!

I also need to start re-listing on eBay again! I've gathered most of my merchandise and I'm ready to start re-listing and going forward again! It takes a while to adjust to a new place, but I think I'm ready to get back into it. About last nights theory... I will test next week to see if that is indeed true. If it is; I'm going to work full-time from home so that I can handle that situation myself. Kinda nervous, I really don't want to know but... what can I do? Marcus thinks I am pregnant, and yes I feel different in the abdomen area. I wish the Internet had more information on how to find out if you are or not. Alot of the symptoms are so vague. I suppose we shall see soon.

In any case, look out people! I'm baaaaack! :)

- Nita

Almost the weekend!

I'm a little more tired tonight than usual... Even though I slept once I got home from work. This cold is really kickin' my butt! I took some night time meds, I'll probably doze off here shortly.

I don't want to jump to any conclusions- as is usually the problem in my case! However; I think I may be pregnant... Well, during the move, it kind of gave my husband and I a little excitment and we 'cristened' the new house so to speak! On more than one occassion this past weekend. We weren't as careful as we normally are and- well I....

I FEEL different ok?? Not sure why, but I do! Maybe this is too early to suspect, but I really don't feel the same! Ugh, I am NOT going to suspect, guess or think about it! It's just been bugging me since yesterday. I have light cramping in my abdomen- ah! No! No no no!! Not going to think about it! Good night!

- Nita
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Late and awake

It's about, 10 till midnight here. I'm awake and thinkin about stuff ya know? I'm still sick by the way, maybe I'll be better by this weekend, I pray!

Trying to plan my weekend in my head. I want to finish unpacking boxes, but I also want to do some shopping! I guess unpacking would be the most logical thing to do first. I'm still debating on whether I should finish my office first or the living room? The bathrooms are still not done and the dining room is in limbo.

Oh well, Marcus is off this weekend, he should be able to help me out. He's really good at that; keeping me focused and on track. I tend to get sidetracked very easily, so he helps me with that :).

Well, unfortunately, I have to work tomorrow so I must sleep now... Really have to work on my website! Sooo behind, ugh it's rediculous! Night!

-Nita
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The battle is won...

So, we are DONE with moving stuff from the apartment! Phew! And I managed to get everyone else sick :(. I plan to return the keys back to them tomorrow, after I retrieve my mail and such. We're at the vets right now picking up our little cat. We had to get her little butt fixed cause she was all getting in heat and stuff! Tired of the yeowling.

Man, I feel like crap. Whatever this cold is its not fun at all! Oh, did I mention I now have office space!? Woo hoo! I also put my work out equipment in there as well- maybe I can lose some weight in the process!

It's about 10:30pm right now, I'm just finishing up some laundry. Washing some blankets so I can snuggle down into them! Feeling a little better to, maybe it'll be gone by tomorrow... Thank god its a 3 day work week! :D

- Nita
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The journey contines...

It's Saturday! Woo Hoo! ...well, sort of; we're still in the midst of moving and right now I'm at sonic getting food for lunch. I got up this morning and went to pharmacy to get more big boxes, then to wal-mart for paint spackle and newspaper- and what has my husband done??? Sleeping butt naked in the living room! Ooo! It's gonna be an ass kickin' when I get back to the apartment!

This entry is from the next day. Well damnit all! In the midst of movin what kinda crap happens?! I get sick! My throat hurts, I ache and now I have fever! Of all the times to get sick! Geez! The apartment still needs to be cleaned and there's still little things lying around- but I'm too freakin tired and exhausted to do anything about it!

My eyes are beginning to burn, I need to go to sleep here shortly. Maybe this coming up weekend I'll get a chance to rest.. I hope anyway. I'm so behind on business and my websites! I need to catch up soon... Please God, be with me...

- Nita
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Needing rest

The move is coming along as expected. We still have to clean however, but it's not as bad as I had initally though it would be. Marcus and I packed the kitchen last night- parted with some old stuff that I had not seen in years!

I need to get back to working on mu business tho, sort of running behind on that! If I don't catch up soon, I'll be in a pickle! Rest is much needed however at this point... I was up till 2:00 am working on an MP3 player for a co-worker of mine and whew! What a night!

So from 2 - 5:30 was ALL the sleep I got! And I still went to work that day! Ugh! I'm going to take a short nap after this entry, but there's so much to do!!! Well, I'll update this later, hopefully with pics of the new house! :D

-Nita
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What a time!

Wow! So much has happened soo fast! Well, first we're getting a new boss at work and I got to interview the candidates!! It was cool! I asked questions that I was primarily interested in. I don't want a stiff for a boss. AND Marcus and I are MOVING!! Woo hoo!

We got a duplex in the western hills district just outside of temple. It's not quite a house- but atleast its not an aparment! Whew! Sick of living in apartmens! We move this friday, I can't wait! Still have some loose ends to tie up, but we should be done and ready by next tuesday I pray.

The move has taken top priority at this point, so I haven't been able to work on my side job or business for that matter. Once its over however its back to the grinde! Yeah! Also, I need to back to the gym. I hope Moose doesn't think wrong of me. He is right tho; I missed 3 weeks I'll have a hell of a time gettin back up to speed! Ugh! Sorry Moose! I'll do better I promise myself!

Well, I'm really supposed to be asleep, but my mind is so awake! I'm gonna try and meditate; that usually helps. Until next time!

-Nita
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Tired

No work tonight. I went to sleep really late yesterday and had such a busy day today! My brain was pretty much fried by the time the work day was over. Well, in tonights news; I got approved for my duplex! Woo Hoo!! Yeah, not quite a house but hey it's a start!

I got approved pretty quickly, so that must mean my credit is getting better. Atleast I hope it means that. I need to get my butt to the gym! I've missed two weeks already! Ugh! I'll fall back into that slump if I don't start going again.

I'm sooo tired. But my mind refuses to rest. Just so much going through my head. This sounds off subject I know, but, have you ever felt that your best was simply not good enough? I suppose that's a dumb question, I guess lots of people feel that way sometimes now and again... I know I feel that way right now.

I wish... Eh, nevermind. Wishing doesn't get anyone anywhere. Night.

- Nita
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Truckin' along

So I'm up again; another night of brainstorming, creative thinking, trying to put ideas and dreams into my own reality.

I have always been interested in small business, business economics, working from home, owning a corporation, stock trading- all there is about the subject of business. Not to mention of course the obvious; Money!

Little does the majority of the population know that there are plenty of ways to create extra income online from your own home! Granted, it isn't millions of dollars or even thousands a day as some of the 'so called' ads lay claim to.

If you happen to buy into that claim, someone will indeed make a quick buck off of your ignorance. I am a victim of this as well, so don't feel bad. I did several of these 'Make thousands in your sleep!' or 'See how I made $4,325 in 24 hrs!' scams and spent over hundreds of dollars that I could've saved and invested into a legitimate business. Yet I did what everyone else desires; a way to make money that takes virtually no effort.

Unfortunately, that is not true. Under no circumstance is any money made without a little effort. Even if the effort doesn't seem to be much, you still had to put forth an effort. Even if it's 'stealing', and in some cases on the internet it can be, it was STILL an effort. However, it doesn't mean you have to steal in order to make some money. Stealing may cause a quick buck, but what about if you want to create residual income? A business that creates good profit and ROI and takes care of you, is something worth putting the effort in and working for.

That is my current ideal as of this point. I wanted money and quick to, but after much trial and error and of course some helpful reading and advice, I too have learned that in order to create lasting and constant income, you have to make the effort. I am not an expert however, I am still learning much about my business and the directions that I can possibly take it. I still work a 8-5 job outside of my home, and I will as it is reliable income that will support my family and my business until its own profits can show for it.

I don't want to go into much detail about my ideas, I may give them away accidentally :). In any case, I will be touching base back here soon. For now, I must finish my brainstorming and continue on till its time to sleep. Until next time!

- Nita

Its March!

So, spring is supposedly in the air! However, it's still some bitter cold days here in Texas. This year however has been off to a pretty good start. So far to date, I've lost a total of 11lbs! Woo hoo! Didn't think I'd even go that far! Lets see, been impressive at work from what I've been told lately. Have a boost of self-confidence and making more friends. I've been very fortunate with money lately and making it so that's wonderful! Now, why didn't I think it was gonna be all that this year?

Doubt. I always being to doubt myself when I think things aren't going well. Ironically, I also doubt myself when things are going great! Only because, usually when things are at their best, its usually something terrible that brings it all crashing down.

Hopefully that will not be the case this year. I'm praying for a good, uneventful year! By uneventful, I mean no bad news, no tragedies, no heart-break- nothing of that kind! Now, if there are good things to come; by all means LET THEM COME! I love good news and happy things! Even though today's world can really bring you down, that doesn't mean you always have to be down!

I feel pretty good right now; I just finished a quick 45 minute work out and whenever I do work out, it always changes my attitude. I owe lotsa that to John, the big lug. He really did spark something in me and I'm liking it more and more.

In any case, life has been pretty good so far. I find that the more I throw myself into my work, home and at the office, I have become very distant. Its so strange, I strive to make it in this world and yet I feel so distant to people around me. I don't want to become robotic; I have 2 uncles like that and they will never know what family means because their work always comes first. I love my family and I would do anything for them. I hope they know that.

My mom asked me a couple of weeks ago; "Why do you want to be rich?" My response was: "I don't want to be rich, I want to be recognized. The money is just an incentive." I always have felt that in order to prove my worth I have to be recognized. I have to make the effort to do more than the average person. To dream outside the norm, live outside the box and create my own path and achievements. Is that wrong? In my perspective no. Although some people are very satisfied with their day to day lives and want nothing more than a family and a comfortable lifestyle.

Do I want that? Of course I do. I just want to make it look a little nicer and dress it up with my recognition. Perhaps I'm chasing a dream, and if so, I will do all that is possible to make it a reality. Did I mentioned that I'm very determined? So damned determined and stubborn, its hard for me to accept that my best was indeed my very best. I've been told by my husband that yes, "I do try to hard." or, "I'm too hard on myself." Yes, I know I am. But how else are you supposed to climb the ladder of success if you're not?

Want to go somewhere? No one will take you up there except Y-O-U. Think about it....

- Nita

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Capitans Log; Star Date 11.02.2008

I am SUCH a trekky! I love Star Trek! All the way from Capitan Kirk to Capitan JaneWay. I know it sounds silly, but thats my favorite TV series that I like to kick back and watch! Thank goodness for the DVR. If we didn't have that, I would never get to watch it!

In any case, another day, another dollar. I'm actually progessing better this year as far as business goes. Last year I struggled to even make a dime, perhaps it has been further studying that has helped me with this. I find that I study more and more whenever time permits. Between a full time job, a part timer and the Ebay selling- Amongst other social activites and hobbies, I find myself exhausted!

Lots of people that I know say I should be stressed and frustrated with all that I have going on. Actually, I find it kind of stimulating. Usually my personality, or past personality was to just let things fly by. I had lost interest in many different things. Hobbies, friends, opportunities- I had let lots of them go. I was depressed and felt that my life was not important. That feeling is not completely gone, however; it seems to have healed in a manner of speaking. I find myself more happier than I used to be. I'm able to concentrate better and feel as if I have more energy to participate in activites that I used to detest. I'm sure Marcus can appreciate my sense of 'well being.'

I honestly do feel a lot better. I feel like I'm getting more accomplished as I go on with all my current activites. Yes, perhaps once they become too much or overwhelming; I may drop a few. Or simply just pass them onto a close family member. One of my sisters ofcourse, they're the closest people to me. I intend to puruse them as long as I can. Who knows what may come out of it?

Right now tho, I'm dead tired! I gotta sleep. Full day at work tomorrow and then gym afterward.


I am happy, and I want to stay this way. Night!

- Nita

A full plate!

Well, my thoughts were worked out from last night and I have put my ideas to good use! Here is a few of some of the current projects I'm involved in right now:

• Selling on Ebay
• Part time job (at home)
  
• Workout routine with Moose (at the gym)
  
• Blogging (as often as possible)
• Short story writing (In my spare time)
• 1 College course at a time

Whew! As if that doesn't sound like a lot! It actually kinda fills my day, not to mention my full-time job on top of all this. I'm still debating whether or not if I should finish my computer degree or just transfer all of my courses toward a degree in business management. I seem to like that much better than I do computers. Although, I still like messing with computers, my passion seems to lie in the business side of it. I really want to own my own small business some day. I think that is the career path that I will ultimately choose.

Yeah, I think thats the direction I want to take. I want to have my own operations and yet the freedom to do what I would like. How I want to move the company, what risks I should take- I think I would like that much better than staring at a computer all day long. ..Having pc problems, will have to finish this blog another time, night!

Thinking

Got so much on my mind right now... Watching, "The Shining" right now. I LOVE this show! It's freaky but I always seem to unwind when I watch this movie. My sisters think its weird that I can watch this show no problem- cause you won't catch them watching it! LOL!

I'm trying to get some ideas for some short horror stories. Nothing new lately. I'm currently reformating my old dreams from like 6 years ago into short horror stories. I need new material tho, but I'm having trouble remembering my dreams. I suppose I should say 'nightmares', cause that's what I usually have.

Not sure if its my meditation getting in the way... Yes, I meditate! So sue me :P! Anyway, gotta find a way to remember my dreams/nightmares better. Guess I better browse the net for ideas. I used to be really good at it, but not sure what's happened? It's probably Moose's fault! :P you Moose! :D

- Nita

Early

Whew! Up this morning working a shift for my second job. Y'know, I can honestly say, I am NOT a morning person! I'm not grouchy or anything, just ready to go back to bed. Good thing I only signed up for an hour, cause after its over I'm heading back to bed! I guess thats what I get for staying up so late. In any case, I took 11 calls last night for my 6-8 shift. Most all of them were for St. Jude Hospital. Those people are so sweet! I had one lady who said she was hard of hearing, I had to yell into the phone for her to hear me. It was funny!

Ah, work out at the gym today. WOO HOO! Can't wait! I always feel better when I work out. My sisters want to work out with John and I, but I'm a little worried. They're much smaller than me and I don't think they'd be able to keep up with us. That and we lift a good amount with lots of reps, they're not in the best physical condition to keep up I think. I think it might have worried him a little, so I'm gonna tell them no. Ooo.. My eyes are burining.

I think perhaps I use computers way too much. Staring at screens all day long, good way to go blind at a young age! But there is so much opportunity with computers! For instance, I have a part time job taking donations and pledges from people and I make some decent money. I also sell on Ebay and enjoy the excitement of auction selling! In addition to all this, I'm in college taking online classes. 1 course at a time of course, and doing that in between shifts! On Top of all of this- I work FULL TIME at the local hospital staring at a computer screen for 8 friggin' hours! Whew! I honestly never thought that I would have so much on my plate, but its all possible because of the internet!

The internet has opened up so many opportunites for people to create a small business or just create an extra income on the side! When I tell people I know about what I do from home, they look at me like I've found a gold mine. "How are you working from home?" They ask right away. I know they want to know how much they have to work and how much you can make. I tell them honestly it is good for part time work. Thats when they pretty much lose interest. They want something they can do from home, make TONS of money with little effort. Yeah sure, its all posted on the 'net about, "Work from home part time, make 3,000 - 6,000 a week!". Yeah, my thoughts exactly. 'IF its too good to be true, it probably is.'. It takes alot of trial and error to figure that one out. Many people don't want to belieeve its a fake, so they spend their money, their time and what not on this so called 'Money Tree'. To only later discover that it wasn't worth it, and now they're $200.00 in the hole.

I know it so well, because I had done it before. I spent lots of money on get rich quick schemes, only when I started to read about each scam I got in my email before signing up did I learn my mistake. In any case, I've learned my lesson and now have found real work at home jobs and make a decent extra income. Hey, its extra spending money, now who wouldn't want that? :). Speaking of which, my shift is just about over. Fixin' to head on back to bed for a couple more hours. No, I'm not lazy, I just work a whole lot so :P.

- Nita

Just another day

So depressed today. I hope the work out this evening will make a difference. I sometimes feel like I could sleep forever... If I could, I"m pretty sure I would.

Well he's done it again! Knows how to make me feel better. Friends are nice ;)

Oooh yeah, I'm sore! I did better when I ran today! I hope I made John proud today! I know I felt better when we were done. Tired as all hell tho, will report in tomorrow with some other news

Whoops! I forgot to post this entry! :D

Entry: 1/24/2008

Thank you.

Have you ever felt that you couldn't thank someone enough? That they've touched you in a way that you can't feel you will ever be able to repay? In one of my entries from a little over a week ago, I recognized a person who seemed very intriguing let along fascinating. However, I didn't know this person would touch my soul in such a way that I don't think I will ever be able to say, 'Thank you', fully.

We did a HELL of a work-out last night, we go to Gym X Sundays, Tuesdays and Thursdays. I have to admit, during some of the workouts I was ready to throw up my hands and quit. Did you know, that he pushed me through all of them? He made me do them, and more despite the fact I was ready to quit. I believe it was mostly in part to a joke that was done earlier in the day, but he has no idea how it affected me! I felt strengthened, powerful- believed in. I am intrigued by this new found strength. I am intrigued by his personality, it seems to consume my mind and somehow show me new ways to endure and look at life. Never have I come across such vitality and perseverance. It is a new breath of fresh air and I love it!

I never did once imagine our friendship would come as far as it has. I actually never imagined that he would ever even speak to me. He seemed so reserved and shy. He is also much better looking that for me to even speak to him, I felt below his level. And yet, we speak about many things as if we had been friends for years. I don't understand this relationship fully, I don't understand how I could have ever been good enough to even be his friend? I know that sounds like I'm putting myself very down, but I don't see the connection. I've asked myself the same when Marcus was interested in me. For weeks he waved at me through the glass window, and only when I did speak to him did we become what we are now. What is the appeal? I don't find myself attractive at all. In my own criticism, I think I am the following:

• Average
• Nerdy
• Unattractive
• Naive
• Strange

Why do people come around and I find the complete opposite? Why do certain people come into my life and show me so much more than I ever knew? Why? I'm losing focus from the main topic. This will have to be addressed some other time. How can I thank him, John? He has made very significant changes in my life and I feel I can't thank him enough. Sure we haven't gone to the gym but maybe only a couple of weeks and we're still kind of new to each other, how do I say, 'Thank you', and he actually understand how much I really mean it? I've told him I want to purchase a gift card to newegg.com for him, but it doesn't seem like enough. I can't give him any physical pleasure for two important reasons: 1.) I'm already committed to Marcus. 2.) He is not attracted to me. And I understand that completely. His tastes are different and he would like someone more to his tastes. The only other option is to find him someone that would understand him and get to know him for the long term. He is a good person and a great friend, I do hope I can aid him in his journey to fine a suitable partner. In the meantime, though he may never read this, I hope he knows how much I'm grateful to know him. How much impact he has had on my life. And... how much he means to me. I know your beliefs are different than mine John, but God wanted us to know eachother; It was fate and I'm glad it happened. I pray I can help you find a suitable partner and I wish you nothing but the best! :)

- Nita

"Laughter is the sunlight of the soul"

I want to use tonight's entry to recognize a very special person. A person you would never guess what they were like till you got to know him. His name; John Payne.

Did you ever dream of someone that would tell you the honest to god truth? Some people don't because they would rather be lied to, but why would you want to hear lies? John is a person who will straight up tell you the truth. Is that not the way people should be? We are co-workers at a local hospital. I've always said 'hi' to him, but I never actually got to know him until changes in our department. I began working closely with John in December of 2007.

I was kind of intimidated by him at first, mostly because he is very tall! I'm only 5'5 so you can imagine he kinda towers over me, hehe. I was always curious about him because he always seemed so sweet and quiet. Turns out he's actually a little shy! Once I put my fear aside, it was easy to get to know him. I found out quickly that he comes out with the truth right away. I can ask him anything and he will give me the most logical answer- no B.S. It's sad that most people in our department are very closed minded, so they assume that he is rude.

That is not the case though! I have girl friends who are honest just like that, and its because lots of people don't want to hear the truth that they shun this trait. Honestly if you ask me, I'd much rather hear the truth than be lied to. Wouldn't you? Now John is also a kidder- but he's so damn funny! Aside from the jokes he makes; he also imitates people and has the freakin funniest facial expressions! Just being around him makes me laugh! He also does this one funny thing with his mouth. I think when he's thinking hard about something, he starts biting the inside of his mouth - its actually cute! Because his lips like move left and right, its too funny! I don't see many other men do that, so thats a unique trait of his, lol.

He's very techy and knowledgeable about computers. He helped me find the parts for my BF's computer at very decent prices! He's into gaming, especially World of Warcraft (WoW). The internets largest online game. So if your a gamer of WoW, John would love to have you in his guild! I can't wait to get my PC back from my BF so that I can play with John and fight in Karazan! The game rules! If you're interested in a free-trial, see the link above. Look John up, I'm sure he'd help ya out!

Now, even though he's a kidder, joker, gamer and weight trainer, he's also a very sweet person. I think this is the side that most people fail to see. He's sharing and very caring. I've never met any guy, including my BF, that likes to give so much. I've talked to him on several occassions about different personal things, and I like to hear his opinion because he is honest. One thing I really appreciate is that he won't let me give up. He's a tested, true friend. Real friends don't let you give up. Or eat doughnuts when you're trying to lose weight! :P He is weight training me so he helps me out.

He is a GREAT conversationalist. We can talk just about anything and have a lengthy and interesting conversation! Most guys kinda like to clam up and just agree with you. He puts in his opinion and gives awesome feedback! Wouldn't it be nice to have someone to talk to and enjoy the conversation? I know I like it!

There is so much more about John that people don't realize. They assume, and my motto for that is: Assumption is the worst F***-up you can make. Why assume someone is they way they are before you get to know them? I know that line from Shrek , hehe, but its true! Don't assume someone is a certain way before you actually get to know them better. You'll be surprised at what you find. I truly believe John is gold. He's a catch ladies! Whatever girl ends up dating him will not regret their decision.

Want to know more about John Payne? Visit his Myspace Page and give him a shout!

Thanks and goodnight for now!

- Nita

It's January!

Whew! I'm up right now modding a cell phone for a co-worker. It's a pink moto razr, I hope she likes it when I'm done! I'm going to load it with games for her for free! I've only recently learned how to mod phones. It's actually become a hobby of mine now. My favorite site is: Motomodders.net. I go there and read the forums each time I get stumped. They also have lots of mods you can download for your phone! Right now I'm still learning abou the razr's. I have a Pebl I purchased for a customer, but I couldn't get the MMS picture messaging to work. That'll be my next challenge :)

So, I spent new years with my family. We had a blast! There was food, fun and a lil alchohol... hehe, just a little! My mom, my sister and I vowed to lose weight! I think it's a common one for lots of people, but we really need too! Our body frame isn't built to handle as much weight as my mom and myself have packed onto our bodies. In any case, we've changed our eating habits and constructed a weekly workout plan. We will be working out together in order to succeed. One of my assests is Sparkpeople.com.

They are completely FREE and have tons of information to help you succeed in losing weight. Visit my personal page if you wish! Nita's SparkPage. Well the cell phone is now modified and ready to go! She'll be so happy to finally get it! This is the start of a whole new year! I just like the feeling; its as if I'm getting a second chance. A brand new start- what a good feeling huh? I acutally feel kinda sleepy right now. Until next time!

- Nita