A love inspects the distorted promise.

A love inspects the distorted promise.

How much is my blog?

Wow, thats a little bit of a tough one... My blog mostly consists of personal thoughts, memos and things like that. I do not think it'd be worth a whole lot. It is mostly sentimental value for myself.

I began my blog in late 07 when my dad was diagnosed with cancer. I wanted to to keep it a health blog, but it soon turned out to be more of an online journal than anything. That was primarily due to the fact that him being sick really bothered me, very close with my dad.

If I had to put a price on my blog, I suppose for the year it would be worth $500. It is priceless to me, and honestly I would not want to sell it because it gives me an outlet to express my thoughts, my feelings and views.

I suppose the only people (company) that would possibly pay for my views would be a survey company, and hell, they may not even like my opinion then! lol!

In any case, I came across the question from: Dragon Blogger

I read his blog, very professional if you ask me. I'd like to create another blog keeping it to one niche and make it look like his, very nice I truly was impressed.

Oh well, I do advertise on my blog now and again, but I think I'll have to say 'no' to selling it. Unless someone offers me several million just for the onions, then maybe... Maybe someday, but not today :)

- Nita

So I'm not perfect, so what??

Hello hello!

Found this interesting article on the front of Yahoo!. It was about Kim Kardashian, who btw is a very lovely lady! The article was about a picture that was released before it was photoshopped! Here it is:

Before is on the left, after on the right.

Oh the horror!!

Not really, I actually agree with her. She told Complex magazine this statement:

"But you know what, who cares!" she continues. "So what: I have a little cellulite. What curvy girl doesn't!?"

That is true to fact! She stood up for the fact that she was not perfect! And she handled it like a professional! Instead of blowing up and losing her mind over it, she simply made that statement. And man, is it true! I should know, I'm curvy myself!

Any case, I also wanted to point out how photo-shopping images totally skews our vision of reality and how women 'should' look! Check this out:

So I'll start from the 'cellulite issue'. Notice on the left, you can clearly see the little 'pudge' of her leg plus what looks like a birth mark up on her thigh. Her skin is also darker as well. Notice on the right? Lightened skin and tight legs, wow! What a change! But even that small change is enough to throw people off, men and women, about how they should look.

For my next part, view the arm. The small open area between the inner elbow and her chest is clearly smaller on the left than on the right. They open it up more to depict a smaller waist-line and bigger firmer breasts. Again! Another skewed vision!

Lastly, I noticed a little change, very minor on the face. Though she already has a slim face and nice cheekbones, it looked as if they made it even thinner and flattened the ear a little. Overall, the picture on the right is tailored to perfection. To be a perfect view of what a woman should look like.

Our society is a visual one. Example? We like the way a certain dish is presented to us at a restaurant; we tend to return to that restaurant, also on the taste. A guy sees a pretty girl on the street, he is visually attracted to her. It is how we operate as a society.

Granted, some women do have flawless bodies, not perfect however. If we were perfect, I can guarantee you photoshop would not exist!

- Nita

Pictures are copyright Yahoo! and Complex magazine. I just fucked with em a little. :)

Change is good! Even in WoW!

Alright now, I am a HUGE fan of World of Warcraft, I mean I play several characters on there. I enjoy the questing, the auction house, the instances- all that jazz.

WoW, of course, is a production Blizzard- Who, and I quote, has put out excellent games throughout the years! From Starcraft to Diablo to Warcraft. I have always been a fan and they have never disappointed!

Well, now all that ass kissing aside; I wanted to highlight on a particular item that has caught my eye many a times on the main WoW login screen. Y'know, the screen you see before you hit play? If not, look below (Exhibit A):

That screen, it varies now and again each time you double click your icon. On this particular screen, I want you to take a look at the ad regarding "Character Re-Customization". Now, I stared at this particular ad for several days, and I thought to myself; 'You know, that is actually a nice way of saying "Sex Change"! But why on earth wouldn't they just put, "Sex Change"?? Such as below (Exihibit B):

Well of course because of all the 'innocent' little kiddies that play the game and what not. However! Is this not much more easier to say?? I do agree it is blunt, but what are you doing when you preform the "Character Re-customization"? Duh! You're CHANGING your SEX!

Granted, many players of Warcraft would never in their life get a sex change, not stabbing at those who do, hey you are your own person so don't dog me on that! However, you will not hesitate to change your toon's gender now will you?

Lvl 70 Warlock: "Yeah, I'm tired of being a dude. Whoa! I can change my sex and have boobs and a pussy?! Hell yeah!"

Ten levels later after the Warlock hits 80....

Lvl 80 Warlock: "So the boobs are too heavy and I miss my dick. I know! I'll go back to being a dude!"

Know what kind of feeling I get when I see this screen? "Hey! It's OK if I want to become a dude! I can just go and get new parts!"

Thank you Blizzard. Thank you for giving us the encouragement and 'balls' to want to change our sex should we feel necessary to do so. No matter what the outcome may be afterward, the message stands clear:

"It's OK to change your sex!"

- Nita


World of Warcraft, Diablo, Starcraft & screen shots are all copyrighted material of Blizzard. I only took the screen and fucked with it a little :D

2009 and a SAD 2008

Wow, the new year came so fast it seems! Thank god, the end of 2008 was CRAP! Let me elaborate why.

So I had left my full time job at the local hospital pharmacy to open a small business right? Wrong! Everything that could go wrong went completely wrong! I don't feel like going into detail, so below is a bulleted list of what happened:

• Invested half my retirment into my business
• Invested the rest into stocks
• Stock market fell - lost ALL my money
• Business failed - lost ALL my investment
• Could not find a FT job (hospital would not take me back)
• Did part time work - never made enough to cover the bills
• Lost my truck
• Lost my house
• Lost about 43lbs over all.

Yup! That is exactly what happened! What a shit story right?! Anyway, that was from October to January 09. After January however, things started to look up. I began to research where I went wrong with my business, the stock market was inevitable I suppose, I'll have to find how to get that back.

Anyway, I currently have two part time jobs that pay well so I am able to make the bills. My husband and I are currently in a spacious apartment- besides the fact we lost our home and our transportation, however we now walk to the store which really isn't that far at all.

I did revamp my business and opened a Virtual Assistant business now. I work Freelance mostly among the two PT jobs I have. So things are working out, I am tired much of the time since I am on the computer almost 24/7 with the exception of sleep ;).

Yeah, the end of 2008 sucked ass! But this year is looking much better, I have to thank everyone that helped us survive that crappy year. My parents, my sisters, Thanks Angel, Adela & Ashley! Even though Angel hates me right now, I suppose I would hate me too. But I am going to pay back your credit card debt, sorry I ran them up.

Anyway, that was the end of 08, can you see why I didn't write very much at all? What a noob! Thanks!

- Nita

Never Enough...

I'm the type of person who sees something through till the finish... However, once I achieve what I set out to do, I find something about it that I can do to make it- Better.

My husband chastises me about my 'perfection' tendencies. Yes, I tend to go over board with things I want to accomplish. Yes, I try to make my goals without error. But, I feel as if I'm becoming obssesed with my projects...

"Will it ever be enough?" My husband asked me one day while we were driving home. The answer was already out of my mouth, "No, it will never be enough." I was slightly shocked at my response; I want to be happy and live a comfortable lifestyle, but will I be able to? If all my intentions are to always out-do myself for a better position, better things, and more money- where does it stop??

Where is the happiness and comfortable lifestyle I so desire? At what point do I level out and say, "ok, I'm satisfied." I don't want to constantly perfect what can never be perfected, its a losing battle. Not sure where to find the answers to this question.

Perhaps a place for me to start would be time management. Maybe if I set small goals, and not such high ones, I can be more satisfied with my work? My husband suggested that, isn't he great??

I think I will take his advice and implement it starting tomorrow... I grow weary of trying to be perfect and accomplish everything. I just want to be happy. Tired right now tho, guess I better let my mind rest- tomorrow is another day! ;)

- Nita
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New job, new life, new discoveries

So, it's been a week since I left my job at the pharmacy. I've worked at home for the entire week, which is great I'm really enjoying it... What I didn't count on however, was how lonely I was going to be!
I truly miss being around people! Its like, a freakin drug, I HAVE to have human interaction! It really is strange, I'm sad if I'm not around people... Wonder if I should join some club or group that meets once a week..? I have to do something- the one thing I can't stand above everything else- is being lonely.

I have to find a solution and soon...

-Nita
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Early morning, can't sleep...

Ugh, its- 4:30 in the freakin morning on a Satuday. The beginning to my weekend and what happens? I wake up at 4:30am!!! I don't know why!? I went to bed super tired, not to mention super later. I figured the later it was, the longer I'd sleep since I would be so tired! But nooooo!

Geez! I'm still tired, but my brain is awake and wants me to get up and do stuff. And from the looks of where my husband fell asleep, he just went to bed about an hour ago. He's a night owl, so that is normal.

My stomach hurts too! Maybe that's keeping me awake. I shouldn't have eaten so late! I'm just goin on and on with my whining goodness! Well I'm tired! I don't feel good and I got no one to complain to right now, so you're just gonna hafta listen Mr. Internet! :P

I've been miss someone from my past very much here lately... I keep dreaming about him. It's been everynight now for the last week.. Can a person really miss someone that much? I know I miss him... The problem is, I don't know why! It just, started like tuesday night, and I just keep missin him more and more each day- not to mention each night...

Oh well, I've pretty much got it set in my mind that I'll never see him again anyway. So what's the point in missing him...? Eh, maybe the 1 in a million that I'll be with him again... Yeah, sappy I know. But if I had my choice, I'd be with him... But that's life I guess.

Anyway, my stomach still hurts. I'm gonna go find some tums or something. Maybe I can get some shut-eye! Later peeps!

-Nita
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I LOVE to laugh!

I just recently left my FT out of the home job to take an opportunity where I will be working at home Full-time and concentrating on my sales. Where I'm going with this is; when I did leave my job at the Pharmacy. People were saying how they were going to miss me because I made them laugh. The one thing that I love to do in the entire world is to laugh!

Whether its a funny joke, video, cartoon stip- anything! I'm all about laughter! It's hard to be serious all the time, and I used to tell people that. You can't be serious all the time, life will get boring! Do you need a laugh right now? RD Laughs probably has what you're looking for! Check this link out below:

Funny Cartoon Strip

To find more funny cartoons, follow this link:

Funny Cartoons

Funny huh? Well if thats not your type of humor, browse the site and look for more good stuff! Feeling sad? What I do is keep different comic strips at my desk so that when I get sad, I can look at them and start laughing. My favorite type of funniness is stand up comedy. Dave Shapell was awesome while he was still doing stand-up! My husband introduced me to him (not personally no, but on CD!) and I was hooked from the first episode! If stand-up is your thing, check this link out:

Stand-up Videos

Now this guy isn't Dave, but he's pretty darn funny!

Grandmdas Crappy gifts

"Laughter is the sunlight of the soul." A good friend of mine has that on his email as a closing line. The part about it, its very true! Don't you feel better after you've had a good laugh? Doesn't your spirit lift up and you feel a sense of relief? I know I always feel great when I laugh- and I laugh all the time! Thats just my personality!

Hooked on this so far? Great! I know I am! You can also subscribe to their Newletter for daily funny stuff straight to your email! So c'mon now, take a peek at one of these links and crack a lil' smile today!

RD Laughs Main

Hey thanks for reading!

- Nita



Disclosure Policy

Here I go again, on my own!

Well, I've done it finally! I'm going full time from home! I'm just a tiny bit nervous, but as long as I practice and study, I'll be ok! I'll be prayin to god as well! He's always helped me stay straight...

From the looks of the call center, it looks like everything is going down... Wonder if calls are going through? I guess they are! I can still see calls coming in! I want to learn better phone skills. OMG! Scott is soooo sweet! I gave him a letter to say good-bye AND that I wanted some info on the business aspect of thing. He is soo intelligent! I wrote down everything he said- what a smart man!

I always new I was attracted to brains and nerds! Hee hee! Whew! I'm spent for the night- talk to you soon people!

- Nita
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